Sort out the DEMONS from your past before BEGINNING.

It’s been a while, you’ve clouded your thoughts with the NEW, brushing aside any disturbing memory that waves a ‘hello!’ in your dreams or moments that seem to be cloaked in the robes you’ve discarded, and you think you are ready for a NEW beginning

That’s what looked radical, right? Then why are you dead at 25 to be buried at 65?

Most people let their dreams die a young death and have a funeral at an old age. They choose to hurriedly move past a heartbreaking event fearing pain and jump to the NEW to fill in their timelines.

Result: failure. I say, “Be a failure NOT a loser.”

Be attentive to the demons from your past for it to not lurk in your present. It is when you put in the effort to sort out these demons that you embark upon a PROMISING new beginning.

Seek professional help. Friends and family are MOSTLY in sync with what you say. So, get an unbiased opinion.

Time heals. Yes. But, if you wait too long, it’ll be a tragedy. If you move on too quickly, it’ll be disastrous. An expert can help you remain mobile and equip you with tools to not just be at peace with your past but even help you sort it out!

DON’T drag ahead/move on. March forth with expectancy.

Because of my Emotional Non-resilience

Here’s to yet another episode of introspection:

Pain- an emotion that is so strong and so alive that it’s not surprising that we understand it to be a part of our reality. Just the mistake I’m making these days. Even while typing out this blog, somewhere, I’m still in the process of learning that pain isn’t my reality, it is a part of life regardless. Sometimes, I wonder if I would have ever been this introspective had it not been for the wedding that was called off? I’m just two weeks away from the date that was to become my wedding day and I cannot but not try to understand the negative impacts of my Emotional Non-resilience. Yes! Possibly, to every negative thought, episode, occurrence, or statement, I could have avoided an emotional reaction. If only I could have been saved the emotional trauma I’m going through currently!

I never knew that pain could be a teacher. The more I learn, the more I feel heart pangs. There’s a difference! This time, I am trying to avoid emotional reactions to the painful thoughts. I’m trying to get mentally immune. I’m trying.

No! I’m not stating that I have attained peace. I’m not claiming the status of a monk for myself. I’m not sure if I know the right path to live through the pain of having lost the man I love. More so, having lost the love of the man I love. I’m not even aware of my brain’s processing during this heartbreak phase. I am of the understanding that the more I would try to overcome this lost-love-phase, the more I’m going to reinforce it.

I recall our initial phase of our courtship period and try to understand the difference created in the last month before our breakup. We were more present in our relationship before the horrific month that could have caused the breakup. We were responding to our thoughts and feelings in real time than we did in April.

Trying to perfect our relationship, we forgot to improve. This could have resulted in adopting an idea about our relationship that could have not been what it was/could be but, it became as it is this, period!, which became fundamentally difficult for him to change while deciding to walk out.

He always spoke about relative truth. When it was the most needed to fight his fears, he took his fears as his reality and made it our truth. Even though he understood the relativity of truth, he succumbed to his fears and took it as a reflection of reality. Me, well, my inability to observe the negativity made me automatically believe his words and actions to be representative of reality.

My emotional non-resilience and (current) weak mental immunity made me succumb to being a victim of my own mind.

-The Jilted Bride